It can be very intimidating to come back after a long while. I had started out with the intention of writing everyday but here I am after more than 4 months not of blogging. I wish that I was better at creating habits but it seems that this is not my strong suit. As an ENFP I apparently am very bad at creating a timetable and sticking with it. I keep trying to improve that side at me but l don't think it's that easy. Still, there is always room for improvement. When I go throughout my life i always hope that I can be self sufficient, that i can be enough for all my needs but that is nit my place. It's not up to me to keep the world spinning and to live like a well oiled machine, namely because I'm not a machine. Im an imperfect human. I like to be busy and to stay occupied so that i dont have to deal eith the rest of me, normally in life and TV we see that this type of lifestyle is never quite healthy or productive. We are the minds of people that work ourselves into a corner and then wonder where our lives have gone. Where we went wrong. But that lifestyle focuses on self and stuff, not others and definitely not God. We need to focus on God to have a truly purposeful and meaningful life.
As a random side note, I got the new Galaxy Note7 and I am loving this phone. But it's always the new process of learning the ins and outs of a new phone and slowly signing into all of my old accounts. It's always a challenge to see if I can remember all of my passwords.
So anyways, here I am at church. I am listening to Pastor John talking about when the disciples have to act in faith when Jesus feeds the 5,000. God never gives us inadequate provisions for the struggles and needs in our lives. He give us enough to show us that HE IS ABLE to provide and sustain us. He loves to show off and be enough for us.
There's my take away. I will never be enough, but i dont have to be. And Thank God for that because I never feel like I'm enough to just function, He is the force that keeps me alive. That helps me to serve Him when I dont think I can.
Songs stuck in my head
This is what you came for - Calvin Harris
How Deep is Your Love - Bee Gees
Unchained melody - The Righteous Brothers