As many of you may know. It's finals next week. The closers it gets the farther I dive deep into denial. It helps me deal with my anxiety to pretend that it's not happening so I can, in the long run, do better on my exams. At least that the strategy. I study no more or less than usual which gives me my easily achieved A-.
Currently I am in my least favorite class called Music History III listening to Cake by the Ocean by DNCE. I am obsessed with this song. It is a party on demand. I am a pop music lover to the core and will gladly jam out to the latest sheeple hits given that they aren't completely obscene and have a terrible life message.
Since no one really reads this blog but myself I will admit that lately I have really bored since I left my ex. Don't get me wrong, I'd rather be single that with him again but I don't think single had to mean "alone". I know that I am a serial monogomyst (is that a word?) and I tend to always want to be in mind term relationships. I mean, it's never been in a relationship shorter than 9 months. The general length is 2 years. But feel inside I want to totally go for flings and short fun romances. However, I know that in the long run I would just be sad and empty. I want someone that I can hold at night and really understand. I want a partner for life. So I try to restrain myself from being a hedonist for the greater good. Still, even though it's my decision, it didn't mean I wouldn't like otherwise.
And here comes finals week to remind me that I have no time to be thinking of such trivial things and to get my butt in gear. Meanwhile Netflix sensually calls my name.....
Currently listening to "Gave Me Something" by Jess Glynne.
Still in love with "Cake by the Ocean" by DNCE
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